A year ago today!

It was a year ago today that Mollee was home recuperating from a tonsillectomy.
no big deal, right?
It was a year ago today that I could not wake her up from her nap.
did her lips look purple?
It was a year ago today that Mollee had a seizure right in front of me.
how long did it really last?
It was a year ago today that I truly panicked for the first time.
thankfully, the boys were all downstairs.
It was a year ago today that I called 911 for the first time ever.
they came in less than five minutes.
It was a year ago today that I rode in an ambulance for the first time ever
oxygen level: 78.
It was a year ago today that I became extremely grateful for our Children's Hospital.
everyone was so kind.
It was a year ago today that Jason's windshield was hit by a blown tire as he was racing to the hospital.
as if God was saying, 'slow down'.
It was a year ago today that the doctors just couldn't give us any answers.
possibly it was her asthma that we have just recently found out about?
It was a year ago today that we waited five days for Mollee to breathe on her own
thank you Lord for being our peace.

It was a year ago today that I had to accept the fact that I am not in control!

It is today that I am forever grateful that I tried to wake up Mollee from her nap.
low oxygen for too long could have been devastating.
It is today that I am relieved I saw her have a seizure.
even if I still dream about it.
It is today that I am glad I panicked and called 911.
sometimes, I forget to panic.
It is today that I have a hard time expressing my relief that Jason wasn't hurt as the windshield shattered in front of him.
what would I have done?
It is today and everyday that I am thankful we have a church family that holds us up in prayer.
what do people do without prayer?

and, most importantly,

It is today that I am eternally grateful that I am not in control!

"Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you." I Peter 5:6-7

Thank you Lord for lifting us up when we need it and for taking upon yourself all our worries - big or small!